I’m at my wit’s end with this stupid weight loss battle. I’m tired of losing my speed after the first few weeks of each new diet. I’m tired of the debates in my head over being a BBW (big beautiful woman) and how my self-image is impacted by social norms. I’m tired of having to pay way more money to buy clothes that don’t make me look like a middle-aged soccer mom that shops at Wal-mart.

But mostly, I’m just tired of feeling fat more often than not. I want to feel strength in my muscles that are currently being strained by the sheer weight they’re carrying. I want to dance with the rhythm that I know I have without all my flab coming in a whole beat behind! I want to pay 10 dollars for a pair of jeans on sale from whatever store I walk into instead of having to buy it offline for $50 (and usually returning it because it doesn’t fit right anyway!)

After three other diet attempts in 2010 with my fiancee (now my wife!), I reluctantly agreed to join her in the new Weight Watchers program at work. I was not gung-ho about it at all, but I did want to feel healthier and I was willing to give it a try. I was (and still am) bound and determined to win, actually.

Here I am two years later, 50 lbs down and 1/3 of the way towards my ultimate goal. Progress has been slow, but steady. I get knocked down and get back up again (thank you Chumbawumba)! I have more energy and my body feels stronger; I’ve jogged/walked three 5Ks with my wife so far and we still have 47 states left to walk in to reach our goal of a 5K in all 50 states! I just keep tracking, staying active and making sure I work on the inside as well as the outside. My journey to healthiness is a wholesome one.

I hope that this blog helps all of you who love to eat, but want to eat healthier; who love to cook, but need a new idea; who don’t like to cook so much, but don’t want to eat the same thing over and over again. Submit a recipe if you find a good one, make a comment if you jazzed up a different one, and share this blog with your friends if you like what you’re eating!

Peace and Pie, foodies. I’ve hit the ground running and my pace is steady!